Abundance Deep Dive: Day 12

Dear Diary,

Feeling a bit drained today, and it’s not really a surprise that today’s topic was about setting boundaries.

Honestly, I didn’t really take notes today.  Setting boundaries isn’t something that I struggle with.  I don’t feel like people walk on me or take advantage.  I am able to say no, or to ask someone directly to stop doing something that I don’t like.

Have I lost friendships over this?  Yes.  I’ve had friends that couldn’t set boundaries, and they finally had enough, and our friendship ended.

I’ve also set boundaries for friends and pissed them off in the process.  Are we friends now?  No, and I’m ok with that too.  The friends that I have now are fantastic, and we are often negotiating the terms of our relationship, to make it a win/win for both of us.

My 2 issues that I do work on when it comes to boundaries, are in business and energy.

Giving up my “real” job to become an artist has been an adventure.  I’ve said yes to lots of projects and gigs that I didn’t love, which ends up sucking my energy.  I am getting better at asking for what I really want, and saying NO to anything that isn’t in alignment with my heart and soul.

When it comes to energy, I find it’s a bit trickier to navigate.  People look at me funny when I say I don’t want to spend time with someone because of their energy, or if I get bad vibes.

I’m fortunate that the friends I’ve attracted in my life have more alignment with this, and it seems less crazy to say these things out loud.  Sometimes though, what I feel is a challenge to explain or put into words.  I wish I could turn myself inside out and show them what it looks and feels like.  I can make analogies and try to describe it, but sometimes that doesn’t work.  I end up feeling a bit isolated and a little bit of an outcast.

One of the best experiences I had where someone could see exactly what I was feeling was with my Reiki coach.  In our sessions, she actually places her hands gently on me, and “moves” the energy and heals anything that’s out of alignment.

Our last session was incredibly powerful, and she asked me if I’d like to know what visions came to her.  Of course I said yes, and was shocked and amazed that what she described was exactly what I was feeling!  (ironically, it was a lot of resistance to this exact path!)

 

We will often attract the people in our lives as we need them, so be patient.

 

Reiki wasn’t something that I would’ve put a lot of stock into.  It seemed a bit far off, and “out there” to be real or tangible to me at first.  But since I’m willing to try anything once, that’s all I needed to become a believer!

I’ll skip the spa and getting a massage for a Reiki session any day, that’s how much I love it!

Today is a day for reflection and connection.

I think about all of the things that make me feel whole, and allow me to recharge.  I am especially enjoying the wind today, and remembering how this one leaf fell and touched my shoulder as I walked alongside the waterfalls.  Was that a coincidence?  Leaves aren’t really falling yet.  It’s August, not September.

If I had to guess, it was an Angel, tapping me on the shoulder to remind me I’m not alone.  Each time I come to this particular park, I usually ask my Angels to come with me.  Today I didn’t say it out loud, so I got a gentle reminder that they tagged along.

Some people will scoff, and say it was just a leaf.  I used to be one of those people too.  Yes, it was a leaf, but it felt like so much more.  I don’t have a label to put on it that makes it clear for people to understand, and I don’t have to.  I feel it, and it is as real as anything else in my life.

It’s Faith, Trust and Love.

I am grateful to be on the quieter side today.  Slow down and be still.  Observe, and be happy in the moment.  I like the flexibility in my schedule and my life to allow for days like this.  If I start to slip into guilt mode, thinking I have to be crazy productive everyday, I gently remind myself that this is why I am on this path.  To have quiet days that are just for me.  No guilt.  No plan.  Nothing created.  Just enjoying nature, the world around me, and grateful to be alive.

Until Tomorrow!

Dream BIG❤️Create Often❤️Inspire Others

Brandi Penrose ~ CuteCraftyGirl

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