Sleep does wonders.
After 3 night shifts, sleeping about 5 hours after each one, by night #4, I’m starting to feel twice my age.
Sleep becomes a priority and I long to feel rested and whole again.
The problem, is that all kinds of things suffer while the focus goes on sleep. Eating healthy foods that require prep go out the window in exchange for takeout.
My attitude takes a nosedive and every little thing starts to annoy me.
I start to turn into a person I don’t like.
When I woke up today, I wanted to head straight back to bed. I was grumpy and numb. Grateful my shift tonight starts much later and going back to bed for a few more Zzz’s was actually possible.
So here I am, a few hours later, and feeling human again.
I’m thinking about the last few days, especially with Goals I set for myself this month. By day 11, I hit a dark turn and my bubbly optimism took a hit.
I skipped a few days of writing, and kept plugging away at life, including submerging myself in distractions like Netflix.
Now I’m looking at what days I skipped working on Creativity and realized I’m not doing anyone any favours by hiding the darker parts of my reality.
I started a post a few days ago, but it’s left unfinished, like so many other projects I have.
I don’t want to be that person.
I recognize that working while inspired is way easier than pushing through resistance. Lots of cool things come from hope, happiness and joy.
But what about the work created from discipline? Is it less valuable?
What about the lesson I learn while I experience the darker moments?
I’m going to post the darkness anyway, despite the fact that my hope was to complete unfinished works in hopes to inspire, motivate and encourage others.
This is a part of my journey, and hopefully my lacklustre moments can serve a purpose.
As I surf the net looking for ways to describe what I’m feeling, I’ve found a few related posts that might help you as it did me.
(Remember I’m tired and not functioning 100%, so borrowing words from other people that are more articulate than me in this moment is A-OK with me!)
Here we go:
I am spending a lot of time with someone that expresses frustration, unhappiness, desperation, anger and is living in a state of victimization. I’d be lying if I said her vibes weren’t rubbing off on me.
To help illustrate, I love this explanation of Vibration:
“Our thoughts are on a certain vibrational frequency and hence is part of the vibrating universe. The Law of Attraction, which is based on The Law of Vibration, states that we attract what we are sending out. Hence positive energies attract positive energies and negative energies attract negative energies.”
Sarah Negus has an awesome blog post about this too:
“Your vibration is your energetic frequency, it is the way you ‘hum’ to the Universe. This can change at any moment, day to day. To give you an example of what I mean, think about a time in your life when you were having a great time, laughing, joking with friends, then the phone rings, and you receive bad news, and your good mood is erased in a second. This is your vibration dropping.
For me I know that if I’m happy and joyful (I mostly live this way) it can all change if I turn on the TV and watch the news. Hearing about the plight of our World makes my vibration plummet, I can feel shock, fear, sadness all together in a rush, a low vibration of my energy without a doubt.
AND, there is nothing wrong with this. Responding to the outside world in the moment is living, it is experiencing all that we are and as humans we are a goodly amount of fear, sadness, anger, resentment, guilt, jealousy, anxiety, stress and need, to name a few of the low vibrational emotions.
For the record, I’ll repeat here, that low vibration is a part of everyday life, as are high vibrations, and is an energetic response to emotions, thoughts and beliefs. Our tears are as valid as our laughter, our hunger and tiredness as normal as feeling energised and satiated. BUT, living with constant low vibration can take you into low vibrational living which is something else completely.
Low vibrational living means looking at life through a pair of dark and dirty glasses rather than rosy ones. Or with the proverbial glass half empty as opposed to half full. Low vibrational living is when the sunshine rarely shines and when it does its too hot. It is when the rain brings flood instead of life giving water and when a breeze turns into a hurricane destroying rather than gently changing the air.”
You are a product of your environment.
Just remember that anything that is not aligned with truth, love, connection, and compassion is going to lower your vibration.
As I shift my thinking back to what I love, what inspires me and what is working in my life, I think about others who’ve come before me.
Bob Proctor is one of my favourite gurus, and he has a video that covers what I’m talking about. It really hit me 7 mins in, what I need to do to help this person I’m spending time with, and hope I can raise both our vibrations! It will certainly work for my own.
I hop you Enjoy!
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